Unwanted Unloved

by Zealot

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released August 27, 2015

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Zealot Willmar, Minnesota

Zealot is a heavy, aggressive metal/hardcore band out of Willmar, Minnesota. We aim to play music that makes you feel as angry as we have felt, and back up our sound with lyrics we hope you can relate to.

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Track Name: Unwanted
I can't help but feel unwanted when every word you say makes me feel sick in my body and emotion to point of draining every ounce of life from my eyes,I'll grit my teeth as your ideas butcher my sanity and my self worth until I can't recognize if it's between depression or happiness. Fuck my life and fuck worth I know I'm nothing but dirt help me wind my noose and let me hang from deaths open door. I will hang there and let my humanity drip like blood until my body and soul is long forgotten, I'm completely helpless while you turn the keys on the locks that keep this anxiety inside my senseless broken mind. I can't feel love because of everything you said to me. I hate myself because of everything you made me think. I've always wondered if we both bleed the same red.I'm ready to kill myself because I've always felt unwanted unloved.
Track Name: Drained
never have I had a clear thought, since it took over my mind. And now I never want to think I clear thought, since I let it own my mind. It's drained my mind it's drained my senses, now just drain my conscious. It's drained my mind it's drained my senses, now just drain my conscious. It's drained my life, it's drained my senses, now all that's left is to drain my conscious. It's drained my life, it's drained my senses, now all that's left is to drain my conscious. Sick my body mind and emotion, it's brought me to a place where I can't stop the compulsions to break and render everything you love. Sick my body mind and emotion, it's brought me to a state where I can't stop these compulsions to break and render everything you love. Living with all this pain is something I've grown numb to. I want you to feel this agony and learn how to hold onto it like I do. Let it grow and bloom like the demon did inside of me. Let your pain and hate feed its unending hunger, so you can set it free and let it devour your mental stability, like you did for me. BLEGH. Sick in my body mind and emotion, it's brought me to a state where, I can't stop these compulsions to break and render everything you love. Sick in my body mind and emotion, it's brought me to a place where I can't stop these compulsions to break and render everything you love. I have no sense of control or directions of these and thoughts. The only thing that I can do is Lie here and wait to rot. Never have I had a clear thought, since it took over my mind. And now I never want to think a clear thought, since I let it own my mind, let it own my mind.
Track Name: Butcher Me
resentment covers my skin and my bones are filled with sin. I can never do right and I always do wrong when I act out these thoughts I call my own. I can't go wrong when I give up and play along with the plan you have laid out for me. I close my eyes and grit my teeth as I play the sheep as your words and ideas butcher me, butcher me. The more you lie the more I wish life would leave my eyes. You words make me feel more alone than alive. Resentment covers my skin and my bones are filled with skin. I can never do right but I always do wrong when I act out these thoughts I call my own. Resentment covers my skin and my bones are filled with skin. I can never do right and I always do wrong when I act out these thoughts I call my own. Your words make me think new thoughts like wouldn't it be nice to die. Every time I hear your voice I lose another part of my broken soul. Everytime I hear your voice my heart becomes more and more cold, you say these things because you say you love me. Just for once don't pretend Id rather you accept me for who I am. Even though I know you still hate me,why wouldn't you still hate me, I hate myself. So that gives you the right to intomb me, in my grave called depression. Or Maybe I should call it regression, I once learned to love and learned to care once upon a time when my soul had no where. I can't go wrong when I give up and play along with the plan you have laid out before me. I'll close my eyes and grit my teeth as your words and ideas butcher me, butcher me. The more you lie the more I wish life would leave my eyes. Your words make me feel more alone than alive. I guess you could call it depression but to me it just seems like regression. I wonder what it would feel like if I end this life of mental oppression.
Track Name: Open Doors
fuck my life, fuck my worth, all I've ever done means nothing but dirt.
Fuck my life fuck my worth, all I've ever done means nothing but dirt. I'll just be another notch on deaths open doors. I'll just just be another notch on deaths open doors. Fuck my life fuck my worth, all I've ever done means nothing but dirt, nothing but dirt. Fuck my life fuck my worth all I've ever done means nothing but dirt, nothing but dirt. My life has gone to shit, I just want to quit, start over with the blade of a knife pressed hard against my throat, I'm sick of living this life. I am opting out I am doing this for me because all I wanted was to be free from this sanity all it takes is me 1 2 3 goodbye mama don't cry over me. I am opting out I am doing this for me because all I wanted was to be free from this sanity, all it takes is me 1,2,3 goodbye mama don't cry over me. I'm not dead, I'm not fine yet and now I'm leaving with a Dead man's mindset. Thoughts astray I'm so blinded, I lost my mind and now I've got to fucking find it. How could you be so close minded, I got a death wish will you please sign it suicidal don't mind. I got a noose will you help me fucking wind it. I'm so sick of trying. Death comes to me like an old friend in need of a helping hand. I find comfort and solace in the company of the dead and damned. Death rings in my ear like a bell I made my own life a fucking living hell. Death rings in my ear like a bell, I made my own life a fucking living hell. Soon I'll will sing my final farewell please don't hesitate to visit me in hell. Fuck my life fuck my worth all I've ever done means nothing but dirt. Nothing but dirt! I have happiness written on a blade and freedom written on the handle. I'll just be another notch on deaths open doors.
Track Name: Long Forgotten
I'm just heartless. Empty and lifeless cold and soulless I guess you could say that I'm just heartless. I never could feel and I never had intentions to love. Empty and lifeless, cold and soulless you could say that I'm just heartless. Empty and lifeless cold and soulless you could say that I'm just heartless, I'm just heartless. You don't know how true it is when I say I have no heart, you don't know how true it is when I say my soul is black. Since I felt pain like that, there's no chance of getting my sanity back. This what I've learned this is all I know I deserve to be six feet below. Every word you said, every look you gave helped me dig my fucking grave. I Deserve to be six feet below. Empty and lifeless cold and soulless I guess you could say that I'm just heartless. I never could feel and I never had intentions to love, yeah. finally be trapped and alone in this coffin i call home. I'll let your dirt fill my body and your words replace my heart. Here lies a man with lead for a heart thatonce knew how to love but has long forgotten, these words are written on my tomb and cover my coffin. I'm just heartless, I'm just heartless, I'm just heartless, yeah. I'm ready to kill myself I'm ready to die because in my mind and body there is no more life. I'm constantly begging pleading praying for death to take me. Since I have no heart and a soul is something I lack, it won't pain me when the life leaves my eyes, and everything I see is Black, everything I see is black. Here lies a man with lead for a heart that once knew how to love but has long forgotten, these words are written on my tomb but cover my coffin.
Track Name: Locks
when all I wanted was calm and rest, when all I wanted was calm and rest. Those thoughts keep whispering how easy life will be when I'm dead. I can't stand these thoughts that eat at my brain inside my uneasy head. When all I wanted was calm and rest. Those thoughts keep whispering how much easier life will be when I am dead. I can't bare these thoughts that cut at my sanity. They pick and pry they pick and pry at the locks that keep my anxiety inside. But I knew it was only a matter of time before I lost control of this fucked up brain of mine. But I knew it was only a matter of time before I lost control of this fucked up brain of mine. I never wanted these thoughts to cloud my vision and affect my actions. It was easier to let them have their way and fall into submission. I never wanted these thoughts to cloud my vision and affect my actions. The thoughts of tearing biting cutting pulling ripping shredding bleeding dying, get to loud. The thoughts of tearing biting cutting pulling ripping shredding bleeding dying get to loud. I am deaf to sound of love I am blind to the sight of kindness. Your words tear me apart because your love was more than a bullshit illusion. They cut at choice of what's left of my sanity. Till all I have left is little jagged pieces of my worthless humanity. Till all I have is little jagged pieces of my worthless humanity. These thoughts just keep whispering how much easier life will be when I'm dead, when I'm dead. I can't wait for these broken thoughts to quiet down and subside. The only words that cut out the noise are those of goodbyes. I can't wait for these broken record thoughts to quiet down and subside. The only words that cut out the noise are those of goodbyes. The thoughts of tearing biting cutting pulling ripping shredding bleeding dying gets to loud. Get to loud. I never wanted these thoughts to cloud my vision and affect my actions. It was easier to let them have their way and fall into submission. Just lay down and die. It seems like these whispers are right, I know these whispers are right. I knew the noise would stop, I know it would easier. I knew that it would stop, I knew that it would be easier. I know I should just accept it, I should just end my life.
Track Name: Unloved
I can't feel love because of everything you did to me
I hate myself because of everything you made me think.
You're worthless to me and I'm worthless to you
You're worthless to me and I'm worthless to you
I can't feel love because of everything you did to me
I hate myself because of everything you did to me
You're worthless me and I'm worthless to you
You're worthless to me and I'm worthless to you
This trance of indifference and apathy blurs my vision.tell me what to think tell me what to love because I'm not confident enough to have my own opinion.
I hate myself cuz everything you made me think. I hate myself cuz everything you made me think. These thoughts are your fault, these thoughts are your fault.
You put these thoughts in my head unwanted unloved will ring in my ears till I'm dead. You put these thoughts in my head unwanted unloved will ring in my ears till I'm dead. Just please tell me I'm not worthless.

You never stop reminding me I know I'm worthless. Just please leave it at that just please leave it at that. You're the reason I only see sadness, you're the reason I've learned to hate.
You put these thoughts In my head unwanted unloved will ring in my ears until I'm dead. I can't feel love cuz of everything you did to me. I hate myself cuz Of everything you made me think. you're worthless to me and I'm worthless to you. You're worthless to me and I'm worthless to you. You put these thoughts in my head, unwanted unloved will ring in my ears till I'm dead.
I hold my blade right as I stand over your bed. The thought always runs though my head do we bleed the same red. This knife might not be as sharp as your malice filled words but It will get the job done of this I'm sure.
I've always wondered what I'll think when my lungs fail to keep breathing. I wish I could tell you what I see after my heart stops beating. I wonder if you'll look at me the same when the life leaves my eyes. This is your fault.
Do we bleed the same red, this is your fault. Unwanted unloved will ring in my ears till I'm dead. Do we bleed the same red, this is your fault, do we bleed the same red this is your fault.
This is never how I wanted it to be, now the only thing that consumes my thoughts is seeing myself bleed. This is never how i wanted it to be now the only thing that consumes my thoughts is seeing myself bleed.
Bury my body fuck my life I never felt your love now just watch me die. So bury my body I'm finally dead lay me to rest inside my wooden bed.
Inside my wooden bed